Bouncing back

Clawing your way back out from the darkness of your mind is not an easy task. I’ve attempted it myself several times.

I may have found something that helps me. I noticed a change in March of 2013. I did really well up until March of 2018. It got worse as months went on. It seemed to peak around May. Mother’s Day was beyond hard. 2018 was the hardest year as it marked the 10 year anniversary of my only daughter’s passing. I didn’t notice my depression getting worse myself. My husband actually sat me down to talk about it. I finally reached out for help in September after having thoughts of not existing anymore.

I’ve finally been able to resume the one thing that seems to have helped me in my bout with my inner negativity. I’ve been at it less than a full week, but it appears to be helping mentally even if my body is taking longer to adjust.

This may not work for everyone, but sometimes a physical outlet helps. Whether that be running, cycling or martial arts, do what helps you. I’m no longer reliant on medication and it hasn’t gone as negatively as predicted.

I hope you find your peace. I haven’t found mine, but I think I’m on the correct path again.

Be safe.